Originally Posted by Astreja

I do not find that assertion satisfying, and this is why:

Forty years ago, I had a vision. I imagined the universal timeline, from as far back in the past as I could see, to as far in the future, with yet more time spreading out in both directions.

Originally Posted by Astreja

I do not find that assertion satisfying, and this is why:

Forty years ago, I had a vision. I imagined the universal timeline, from as far back in the past as I could see, to as far in the future, with yet more time spreading out in both directions.

I considered the fate of people, then nations, then planets, then gods. Either they came to an end and gave way to another; or they continued into infinity, with no ultimate reason for existing. I saw no way of assigning a god's purpose to a mortal, because I saw no purpose for the god.

At first this led me towards nihilism; but my personal reality has never been consistent with an absolute "nothingness" because of the richness of my life experiences. Eventually I came to realize that my meaning exists in the present moment, in my own awareness, and nowhere else; and now I can access it just by sitting still and experiencing the moment.